I'm excited to have a new word for 2018 and I invite YOU to have a word also!
Earlier this year, I was talking to a friend who was approaching the one year death anniversary of her father. I knew that she must have been experiencing so many hard emotions all at once. I remember when the first anniversary of my mom's death happened back in 2002. It was terrible.
I wanted desperately to tell her that time heals all wounds that that the pain would be less and less with each passing year. At the time, I had lived 15 years since losing my mom. Surely this should be something that I can say from personal experience.
But then I realized that I'd be telling a lie if I said that to her.
Time doesn't heal all wounds. And the pain doesn't go away. It just changes.
It's almost Valentine's Day. I'm almost 28. And I'm still single. I never thought that I'd write a blog about being single, mostly because I didn't think I'd still be single. You see, I've wanted to be a wife and a mom since I was 11 years old. And over the past few years, I've really struggled with the fact that my deepest desires are unfulfilled.
This struggle is one closest to my heart, one of my biggest secrets, and not something I talk about often. Who wants to be known as "the girl who just wants to be married and isn't." Not me. But God has been transforming how I see my singleness and I just have to write about it.
I've noticed that it can be really hard to enter into new. And I've learned that one of the best ways to enter into a new season in the best way possible is to end the previous season in the best way possible. I've also noticed that I have a tendency to end seasons like a chicken with my head cut off. I don't always do it well. So I am gathering all things I've learned, compiling a list, and really answering the question "how can I leave this season in the best way possible?"
Because even the hardest things in life have a "best way" to be done well.
I will no longer be serving with Yebo Life.
At first, it felt like everything was falling apart. But as time has happened day by day, I'm seeing that things aren't falling apart, they are just changing. This transition isn't easy. It's actually one of the hardest things I've ever done. But it's going to be one of the most impactful chapters of my life. I can already tell.
I love the power of story. I love that our testimonies of amazing things God has done in our lives carry so much power, love, grace, and the best thing ever- God's glory.
I was blessed to share my testimony with grade 7 students at Westlake Primary School this week. One of our ministry partners, Ronald, started this awesome ministry called Future Life, where his vision is to restore hope, change mindsets, and help others reimagine their futures. I feel so lucky that I got to encourage these youth of Future Talk to reimagine their futures as I shared my story.